FIREFIGHT! TMR!
awesome shit, i so cannot wait.
it's in a few hours!
but damn, i might be seeing school people.
but, who cares.
i'll be with sonicedge & terence.
FIREFIGHT! GOSH!
i'm turning into a groupie.
shut up celestine.

settlers was awesome.
playing with rachel, yisheng and kevin is very different.
i love the old clique still, but ah wells.
it is nice to play with others.

IGGY'S A GOD. I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE HIM.
thankyou! the dogs are beautiful.
they're gonna follow me everywhere.
you're awesome!
i love you shitloads stick!
thankyou.

i seem to be gushing, but then again.
it's the weekend:D
that always brightens up my day.
i miss excess like crazy.
hell, i miss sonic edge too!
i'll gladly rush like some mad ass tmr.
just to see both sides.
1:50 AM
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In this maddening century,
Normalcy has lost its rhyme and reason.
Tedium is the new millenium.
& God has lost all meaning.

We're screaming sex, drugs, fame.
No one gives a damn about the church.
& all that we proclaim, is how to win the game.

We're slaves to the music,
A generation of mindless worshippers.
Posers that change with the tide,
Idolatry and false beliefs will be their downfall.

Surrending our souls to the Hollywood God,
We're groupies, singing songs we don't know.
& writing love letters like stencils on our arms,
We're doomed to fall, just down the drain.

it doesn't make sense to me):
i just felt this urge to write it.
it's so random.
so, not me.

AND MY BEST FRIEND'S BACK.
YAY, DARLING STICK'S BACK.
HE'S STILL ALIVE!
AND HE STILL DOESN'T WANNA GIVE ME MY VDAY PRESENT):
BUT I STILL LOVE HIM.
YOU'RE AN IDIOT, BUT I'VE MISSED YOU BAD.
WHERE'S MY PRESENT?
HEH.

i just realised i have awesome friends out of school.
of course the fact being i have hardly any friends in school.
let's see, there's DAPHY! IGGY! NANA! THER! BENNY! NICKY! MELSTER! UNCLE JEM! TERENCE! NAT! GUNA!
and shut up celestine. stop naming everyone.
you guys make me laugh, and make my day.
honestly, i love you all.
though of course, i can't name everyone i love.
1:57 PM
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i abhor crying in school.
but somehow, the loneliness is too much to take.

i wish you're back.
i need you here.
i miss you shitloads man.
3:17 PM
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i'm dead tired.
i woke up at 4.30 this morning to have breakfast with terence.
it was a shit crazy idea,
but then again, i had the best fun in ages before school.
thankyou shitloads.

i'm amazed i didn't fall asleep in class.
hah.

turtles with se!
yay, i love.
chilling out with them always equals laughter.
i heart sonicedge.
HAHA, now that sounds damn gay.

ok shut up celestine, you're just damn tired.

settlers settlers!
i'm addicted to it and i wanna play again so badly!
damn, the next day is only friday.
that's like damn long lah.

i miss iggy):
thursday seems an eternity away.
stick! get your ass back in s'pore asap.
10:32 PM
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i just found this while working on my art piece.

she curls up each night,
to another moment of endless outpouring,
when the salty tang of saline overpowers the taste buds,
& the sweet scent of juice pervades the air,
then she wonders why you're never here anymore.

she keeps to that carefully constructed sham each day,
where all you see is megawatt glam shots,
fuelled with a passion for deception,
& as they swarm around like vultures to the stiff,
she wonders why you don't save her.

somedays she sits and reminisces,
as the leaves fall and the transition begins,
the senses are intuned with the need for disaster,
& the catastrophe started with the simple disappearance,
of someone so dear who took a chunk and left,
and along vanished what was left of sagacity.

she'd loved to be saved,
but it's too late for morals to step in and save the day,
everything's a step frozen in time,
& you can try but she'll always slip from your grasp,
'cause you never undertook the mission to save her from herself,
hell you never gave a damn, till the day the metal called to her,
it's little surprise she's lost to you now.

& it'll gush out until it's too drained to move.

it's so nostalgic.
heh, funny how everything i used to write sounded so depressing.

i guess it was the night,
it stole away the rationality,
& left me with the poignant memories,
i still miss lepak bench very much.
take very good care of yourself in bangkok & mumbai.
i love you tons.
10:34 AM
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bumming at home isn't all that nice after all.
i'm darn bored already.
why can't someone come over and entertain me?
gosh, i must start on tuition work soon.

jem's the biggest ass.
but then again, so is everyone who keeps rubbing in it.
yes, i'm underaged & i can't watch 300.
well, shut up already.

camp's been pretty darn powerful.
experiences were superb.
it's amazing to see the holy spirit working in all of us.
i'm much more affirmed in my faith now.

i love that i've gotten my best friend back.
& he's gotten his love back.
well, what can i say?
i love the both of you idiots.

i love mel!
i'm sorry i didn't answer your call.
but you haven't replied my msgs either.
regardless, you're awesome.
thankyou again!
1:07 PM
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hello, I love plainsunset.
oh, & the firefight is pure bliss as well.
heh, jonleong hit the nail on the top of the head.
but hey, why should i tell him it's right.

i love.
you guys rock.
9:13 AM
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i promised mel i'd post unglam pictures of him.
well, i'm starting today.
HAHA.


sometimes i wonder what i call this frustration i feel within me.
it's a thing that brings out the widest range of emotions.
& it pisses the hell out of me.
especially when i keep trying to do everything at one go.
& yes it doesn't work at all.


i'll probably drive myself crazy soon, haha.
but you see, i always worry.
especially if i'm in charge of something.
gosh, why am i even trying to persuade myself?
i swear i'm nuts.


honestly, friend, where are you?
i haven't spoken to you in ages.
we haven't gone out since forever.
i miss late nights, crazy antics and the lepak bench.
i miss you so badly, it hurts.


why don't you cut a hole out of me.
i think that'd hurt a lot less.
we're always blowing hot and cold.
i don't like, 'cause you mean the world.

it's harder to smile when you're not around.
5:30 AM
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i'm dead tired):

i just wanna skip school.
damn.

i'm shocked, amazed, i don't know.
fangfang called me earlier & invited me to msg & cell.
i don't know what to say.
i honestly never expected it.

anyways, there's so much work.
foo!
i'm piling stress on myself.
damn.
12:14 AM
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honestly, i'm still disturbed.
i can't banish the thought from my head.
thankyou mel, jo, everyone.
i love you guys.

dearest father,
thankyou for letting your presence be known to me.
it meant a lot, what you got jo to tell me.
did you mean service this saturday?
all the same, thankyou so very much father.
i love you, really i do.
12:17 AM
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see melvin wong.
you look like a guy, finally.
happy?
4:42 AM
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12:29 AM
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i feel extremely detached from school.
almost like watching a movie only i am in it.
i doubt i'm making sense.
after all, i'm dead tired.

i just spent more than an hour looking for majestic,
before i realised i could just google the lyrics. -.-
ah wells, i'm stuck on tuition homework.
i guess i don't have to sleep already.
let's just hope i can get some caffeine before tuition.
3:02 AM
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