MOVING!
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If you're even interested.
http://teratine.livejournal.com
I'm changiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing:D
SEEYOU!
1:08 AM
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I KNOW WHO I CAN POSSIBLY PSYCHO TO THE ZOO!
IGGY! You're a darling aren't you?
& I know you read this dumb blog.
PREEEEEEEEETY PLEASE GO WITH ME?
I'll bake/cook you ANYTHING you want to eat!
SAY YES PLEASE?
For me? HEH.

Results are depressing & upsetting.
But, it's time to move on from them.

AND IGGY HAS AGREED!
YAY YAY.
I knew I could count on you!
Thanks hon.

I dread school tmr.
One week & 4 more days to my holidays.
I so cannot wait.

I'm happy.(:
I've finally come to a decision.
9:40 PM
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I can't sleep again.
It's annoying me.
1:01 AM
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Well, FengHang's leaving tmr.
BYE, we'll miss you muchly.
Take care & I hope you get tons of breaks.

Zoo was a no go 'cause of the rain.
& the lack of company):
I was so looking forward to it lah.
BLAH):

Funny how the eXcess people dislike FireFight.
Ah wells, doesn't matter.
They never fail to make me happy.
That's all that matters.

Ther was saying that she & Guna I think came up with a theory.
On why I dislike going to CTK so much.
I think they said something about the church pushing me away so I end up being more inclined to COOS & SonicEdge.
I can't really remember actually.
& I don't think it'll be wise of me to comment much on this topic considering it's so sensitive.

SEE! I'm learning to grow up already!
Heh.

& no I didn't attend mass.
Felt too lazy.
But the publicity posters are up!
I so have to see them, heh.

I have a craving for osmanthus green tea suddenly, don't ask me why.
Perhaps after being on a virtual diet of coke for the past few days,
I kinda want something different.

I hate sundays.
It's back to school tmr.
2 more weeks of hell & it's the good ol' holidays.
Next week's filled with NP stuff.
I'm trying not to cringe.
But then again, I should try being more active since we're leaving soon.

I wanna go around S'pore eating all the good stuff.
But I need someone who knows where these places are.
Mama's too sick to bring me around):

I like what I'm hearing.
iamdavidsparkle!

It's good to catch up with old friends, hello Nigel!
& Melster & Tim are at my house now.
8:10 PM
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I can't seem to sleep.
I've been up since 1 plus.
& I've been online since 2.30.
I feel like such a computer geek.
But no, I haven't done anything apart from listening to music, changing the skin, & stoning at the screen of my com.

I think I'll head outside to the living room to watch a movie.
Then maybe I'll start on breakfast.
If I'm lucky, by then it'll be time to go for mass.
Oh joy, mass.
I reserve my comments about it.
I guess, I'm biased perhaps.
But, I just prefer service a lot more.

I just thought of something random.
Maybe if I just stopped being so afraid of being alone with SE,
who knows, they may just open up even more.
I mean, if a supposedly shy person like Liana talks to me, it does mean they're beginning to accept me... right?
I sure hope so though.

JUNE 3RD:D
3 more weeks to go, it seems an eternity.

Gordon's coming for comfirmation.
-GRINS.
Haha, I can just imagine.
What would be sweet was if Iain & ahLeong came as well.
Josh is always busy & I hardly know JBarks.
But, who am I trying to kid?
They hardly know me as well, apart from settlers with ahLeong.
5:55 AM
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I'm glad I went.
I don't deny that it was weird & kinda lonely.
But my own fault for choosing not to mingle.
My social skills have recently deteriorated like crazy.

Still, Turtle aka IainTham never fails to amuse me.
I'm sorry I nicknamed you Turtle, it just seems apt.
Thankyou.(:

I think if JonChan hadn't asked me to sit with him,
I'd have gone to the back & sat there by myself.
That's how anti-social I was.
He was super funny lah.
'Huh, you're crying? Don't cry lah. Everything will be all right!'
Thankyou Jon, you kept me sane during service.

The after service part was awkward initially.
Where I stood there not knowing what to do.
Then took my bag & tried to leave, only to have JonChan asking me to stay for dinner.
& then JonChia came over & Liana.
Love muchly.

Dinner with Gordon(yay he's back), Milton, Aaron & JonChia cheered me up.
Meridian's food is an absolute joy while the others went to Little India.
Jon amuses me to no end, & yeah, I can't stay sad when he's there.
& it's just good to be around them.

Relationship with the 'rents never used to be this bad.
I wonder how it actually got to this point.
But then again, when you throw 3 stubborn & proud people together.
It's really what you'll get then.
):

I miss hearing FF live.
Hell, I miss settlers.
& I miss my cell.
I need the things that make me happy.
I need the people who make me smile.

Hello, where are you?
2:32 AM
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Service starts in about 2 & a half hours.
I'm scared. =/
Though of what I'm not very sure.
Jem claims that SE doesn't feel weird around me.
But I'm still nervous.
I'm gonna go early early, so I can somehow talk to some of them first.

AH):
Ok, I should be heading to take a shower now.
Oh man, I want my ice cream & zoo.
HAHA.
3:33 PM
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I think I need to head back to CTK this sunday.
I haven't been there for a month already,
& I'm kinda missing the people.

Results were disappointing to say the least.
):

JonChan never told me anything):
So I was stuck at home listening to the 'rents being a bitch.
):

I wanna go for service tmr!
But I'll have to go alone):
-GULPS.

I still want my ice cream & I wanna go to the zoo.
Now I just have to find a companion.
I may choose to walk around & visit random places alone.
But I'll be damned if I'm gonna head to the bloody zoo by myself.
I'm not such a loser... yet. Right?

):
1:54 AM
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I realise I've been posting a lot today.
BUT BUT, JonChan hasn't gotten back to me about the gig,

AND! I CAN'T SEEM TO TUNE MY BASS.
& THE STUPID PLUG FOR THE AMP WON'T GO INTO THE SOCKET.
Talk about being upset.
AH!))))):

TURTLE! I need green turtles & ice cream now now now!
9:09 PM
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I think Jem's still very mad at me.
I'm so so so sorry.):
He hasn't replied my msgs.
SHIT?
I really didn't mean to fall asleep):

On a sidenote, today was hell fun.
We had ice cream, then subway & esplanade.
Y'know what, I absolutely love you.

7:39 PM
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You break my heart):
Gosh I'm hungry, & I want fooooooooood.
Iggy is a dumb pot.=/
12:38 PM
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I think I'm currently very screwed.):
I was supposed to watch the manutd match & I fell asleep.
The worst thing is Jem was waiting for 20 mins for me.
I have this feeling he's pissed at me, shit.
I honestly didn't mean to sleep.
Oh man.

Now I'm scared again, blah.
10:17 AM
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To be absolutely honest, I was kinda dreading cell today.
'cause Jeremy wouldn't be there, & it'll be like the first time without him.
I'm very very glad I went though.:D

I hope that your life is as wonderful as how God planned it for you.
I think that's what Pastor Dan said on saturday.
I had forgotten about it actually, Kevin reminded us just now.
Thankyou!

YAY, they liked the chocolate thingy:D
Their comments make me smile.
& I swear the guys are damn sweet lah.
Plainsunset has a gig on friday at Home & obviously I'm underaged.
But Jon Chan said he'll ask around if I can go in!
Awesome, now I just have to get him to call me TINE instead of Celest.
YAY, love!

AND AND because I drank too much water, I needed to pee badly.
& well the church is locked by the time cell ends,
the coffeeshop toilet is too far & disgustingly dirty, & macs is also too far.
I almost went to the guys toilet nearby 'cause I was beyond desperate to pee.
Iain & ahLeong were damn nice lah, they were gonna chase away all the ah peks for me first, then stand guard at the door.
Luckily, Iain brought me to the wakemeup store instead.
It's a clean toilet with toilet paper making me a very happy girl.
Oh, & the wakemeup store is super cosy man.

Went home with JonChia after.
I'm glad I'm being accepted into my cell now.
Even Iain's talking to me, haha.
& FengHan's leaving next monday.
Oh man, I hope he get frequent leaves then he can come back.
HEH.

I've got my application form for bsp(:
& the Anberlin tickets!
& I'm seeing Iggy tmr.
Yep, bad mood has flown away.

& bsp is expensive sia.
For a nonmember of the church that is.
I kinda gotta pay 70 bucks a year.
But it's pretty worth it lah.
12:56 AM
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My shopping partner's abandoning me at 4.30.
So pardon me if I'm grouchy today.
No, I'm not in a particularly good mood at all.
Oh sheesh.
No one is free to chill with me till 7 plus.
Yep, I'm in a very foul mood currently.

I hate plans screwing up last minute.
Please don't tell me it's my fault again.
'cause that's what you always do.
& frankly, I'm close to breaking.

Screw off, thankyou.
11:06 AM
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MY VOICE STILL SOUNDS LIKE CRAP):
When I sing that is, otherwise I still believe it's sexy.
HAH. Ok Tine should shut up.

I'm meeting IGGY on Thursday:D
YAY!

I'm excited. Midyrs are finally over!
But the checking of paper is this friday):
I dread, but that's ok, I have faith.

I'm finally heading back to cells.
-Grins.

& I'm craving food.
& I wanna watch the manutd chelsea match tmr!
& I'm speaking rather disjointedly.
Ah wells.
11:32 PM
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Here's the part where I look at you & say how happy I am.
Here's also the part where I say my moods have been fluctuating.
& the part when I tell you that I feel like crying.
& that it scares me how much faster I'm drifting away from them.

It's scary when the people I've thought strong, cry.
I've seen the most cheerful people break down in tears.
Guys whom I love & respect so much break down & cry.
& for some reason, that scares me.

I need a security stronghold & not just listening to music everyday.
The things in my head are currently very jumbled up.
Last paper's tmr!
But I haven't studied much, I'm gonna fail.
FireFight. Iain, Jon.
Kevin Chow, Josh.
Cindy, Gordon, Iggy.
Jesus, Ben & Jerry's ice cream.
I said it was jumbled up.

Tell me why I should feel safe & protected.
Tell me why I'm falling.
I don't like.):
1:42 AM
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