everytime you're nice.
you up the guilt i feel inside.
i can never like you.
so why do you keep being so nice to me?
it makes it so much harder for me.

and then i think of the other one.
and i feel miserable all over again.
its tearing me apart inside.
slowly driving me insane.
unable to tell you the truth.
yet dying to just blurt it out.

afraid to thrash the friendship.
yet hoping it might develop further.
what the fucking hell?!

im getting tired of this carousel.
i wanna get off.
far away from this repetitive hell.

run off somewhere where i can breathe.
where i can rest.
my haven.
which just seems to be crowded nowadays.

whatever happened to peace and quiet?
just what the hell happened to the serenity that's never coming back?

the statements hurt.
i just dont show it.
i care.
you just dont know it.
its a bloody facade.

when one mask is discarded
another rises to take its place.
you will never see beneath the mask.
thats impossible.
6:24 PM
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