i dont like my commanding):
i think i screwed up.
blah.
and considering my moi and uniform aint gonna be getting me marks,
there's goes all hopes of attempting to take first class.
aaaaaaaaaaah.

i remember sqdmates commenting that my wonderfully black nails,
are shinier than our boots.
so i decided to coat it with lacquer again.
in the hopes that it'll shine more.
HEH(:

and i just dont know what to do anymore.
i feel like im whacking against a brick wall.
im not a good nco.
i know that.
but im really trying.
i remember saying i wanted to be a dedicated nco during lmsc.
and i remember also feeling that i was chosen as an nco for all the wrong reasons.

i remember feeling like shit.
and still feeling that way.
i hate being the sqd nco.
in some ways.
but in other ways,
i dont mind it.

but i hate it when you guys try to take advantage.
and climb all over our heads.
we tried talking.
it didnt work.
would you understand if we tried explaining how we really feel?
im willing to bet its a big NO.

if you think its so easy,
why dont you just try for a week.
then you tell me how you feel.

i really hope your reaction will not be one of joy when we change the style.
if so, well.
all i can say is shame on you.
just like yati.
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