i'm having a damn runny nose again.
-mutters.
jacket wasn't thick enough to keep me warm.
hence i went around freezing like shit.
too bad, i didn't have time to stop by edward's house.
he wanted to lend me his.

eeyer, the briefing for the trip was the same.
blah, i just went there to make myself colder.
what the hell, seriously.

i proved to celesther why i loved going out with edward so much.
hell, she enjoyed it too.
dadeedum.

i suddenly thought about birthdays yesterday.
and really, i've never enjoyed my birthday since secondary school started.
each birthday has been hell in different forms.
oh well, i guess i'll get used to it.

mum's worried.
'cause she's not happy that i'm always with edward.
it's definitely not a good idea to say that i really like his bed, and slept on it in fact.
she'll probably burst man.

the weather's depressing.
it's feeding me thoughts that shouldn't be in my head.
and my safety pin's are much too tempting.
sitting prettily in a row on my table.
oh damn.
why did i make those deals again?

i'm praying i haven't been lying to myself.
please don't let me be lying.
i just really want to be over that whole damn episode.
why i didn't i meet excess earlier?
damn, and i should stop corrupting my mind with those thoughts.
'cause then, i'll pine for my blade.
and i don't want to disappoint edward and the others.

heaven's dead when you get sad.

thankyou for showing me what i always believed.
from the start, i should never have bothered trying.
you broke me.
luckily, you'll really be the last.
6:03 PM
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