in typical celestine fashion, the only word out of my mouth,
when the lady pressed the gun, was fuck.
i can't sneeze nor yawn now.
i forgot for a moment that it was there,
and happily squeezed my nose.
let's just say i almost died.

syikin's probably preparing to kill me.
i'll say the same thing though,
don't use sqd i/c to pressure me.
i'm not even treated as a sqd i/c, so it ain't gonna work dear.

fellowship with acts29 was fun.
he left early.(:
jarvis must be one hell of a rich man.
trainers earn tons.

met cinch.
apparently she knows, and she ain't happy.
babe, i don't know how to explain to you.
sheesh, i can't even explain it to myself.
you're probably not going to get the truth lah.
i can't even go through a day without lying to myself.

i've been repeating the same thing in my head for the past few days.
i'm trying very very hard to convince myself.
i believe i'll buy my lie soon.
i hope that day comes faster.

eeyer.
i thoughtjoanna meant just a few people designing the cover.
thanks for spoiling that though lah melvin.
but at least i can still do a very dark kind of design.
only i need a good reason to justify it.
blah.
i can never find good reasons.
only lousy ones.

bury them in a box, she does.
lock it in a corner, she agreed.
but still it lingered.
and now she's very tired.
she wants to sleep.
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