i don't care how mushy and stupid this is going to sound.
but i honestly feel loved and cared for.
thankyou eXcess.

it's the little little things that you guys do that really makes my day.
i felt real touched on sunday when joshua hugged me.
i was expecting just a hello after mass or something,
or maybe even to be ignored. but i got one big hug.
right about when i was feeling kinda blue.
thankyou joshua, i love you tons.

and then talking to ben cheered me up a little too.
just knowing that he cared enough to bother.
same for joanna, alphonsus, aloysius, eugene, nick, amanda, nat.
i'll smile for you guys.

and then melvin.
thankyou so much for staying up all the time.
to accompany me while i'm studying, to listen to me cry.
hell, just to talk to me 'cause i don't wanna sleep.
man, i feel guilty.
considering you hate studying, and you were tired.
yet you bothered.
it means a lot to me.

edward! what can i say man.
you're honestly one of the best.
thankyou for the booze, the jacket, the bed, hell, everything.
thankyou for offering a shoulder to cry on.
and a body to hug.
thankyou for letting me dump my emotional baggage on you,
and still you don't complain.
thankyou for changing my life.
the tuition, the group.
there's so many things i wanna thank you for.
i can't even think where to start frankly.
all the same, you've done a ton for me.
and i really really appreciate everything.
even shelving your embarrassement to cheer me up.
i love you a lot edward chia.
thankyou.

at least i know if i'm crazy enough to think too much,
i still have people who care,
and people who will do anything for me,
and who will probably get me the moon if i asked for it.
all just to see me happy.
and really, it's kinda like the first time i realised it.
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