tell me what we did was normal.
and i'll love you forever.
my sister disapproves completely.
and i can't say i blame her much.
only, i wish there could be another explanation.
though, frankly, i don't know what i'm doing either.

i'm afraid, i'm really afraid.
i guess i'm just waiting for it to come crashing down on me.
i'm waiting for the day that you'll turn your back on me.
like what everyone else has done.
i'm terrified i'll get hurt again.
but i can't seem to stop from giving it my all.
why did you stomp into my comfort zone.
now i'm too far gone with no way back.

will you?
will you be like all the others?
you promised me no.
but so did they.
and look what happened.

please don't let me fall.
'cause there really wouldn't be anyone there to break my fall.
and i'm tired of hitting the ground hard.
you can push away all the tears and grimaces, just by being.
i'm falling hard, and i don't like it.
please don't be so nice.
please, for my sanity.

ignore me, scream at me, whatever.
for my peace of mind, just do it.
'cause i don't know what's running through that mind of yours,
and that's what scares me a thousand times more than anything else.

i'm a fool, and a big one at that.
i'm an idiot who really should lock up all her emotions.
11:16 PM
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