Welcome to my world
Where everyone I ever need
Always ends up leaving me alone
Another lesson burned
And Im drowning in the ashes
Kicking
Screaming
Welcome to my world

So here I am again
In the middle of the end
The choice I wish Id made
I always make too late.

boo, i don't wanna bother trying anymore.
it's getting too hard.
was it all a facade then?
probably.

if you ever read this, though i doubt you will
'cause you wanna respect my privacy,
don't bother reminiscing, 'cause you'll forget soon enough.
don't care at all, 'cause you have better things to do.
please don't waste your time sticking around me,
you really have so much more that you could do.
have i succeeded in pushing you away yet?
please say yes.
though really the thing i want to say most is i'm sorry.

tong, babe i love you much, y'know that right?
ah wells, i do.
but babe i really can't find meaning anymore.
i'm sorry if i'm hurting you as well.
hell, i'm sorry if i'm hurting everyone else.
but i just can't find any meaning.
and i'm so tired of random times when the tears start rolling down.
i'm sick of feeling weak and abandoned.
i d'know that i'm causing all of this by my own bitchofamind.
but i can't stand me, really i can't.
i pushed everyone else away already y'know that.
would i be insane if i asked you not to stop me?

stick! you mean so much more to me than everyone else in this world.
and i love you so much it hurts when i see you down.
and though the only thing i do is hit you and swear at you,
you're the one person in the world i'd do anything for man.
but not this time, i can't do it for your sake.
i don't even know why i'm hurting now.
but you see, no one will believe me.
and i'm tired of justifying myself as well.
could you let me go?
what's the point of drifting?
there's no sense in that.

nothing really matters to me.

arm's a wreck, yet nothing will come out.
it's beyond insane, i don't care.
i want to sleep tonight, and never wake.

i sound like i'm saying my last goodbyes.
well maybe, maybe not.
blah. what does it matter anyway?
it's all the same.
8:38 PM
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