i hate hearing you ask me why now,
i hate hearing the desperation in your voice,
i hate that you sound so fucking helpless,
i hate that there's nothing i can do for you at all.

you're really killing me hon,
you're tearing me up inside.

i can't sleep, 'cause your words are on constant replay.
i can't smile, 'cause i see that fucking sad smile of yours.
i can't laugh, knowing that you're so unhappy.

you frighten me so much,
i don't know what other dumb things you can come up with.
i can't imagine december without you man.

it's like looking at one whole boring month,
with extremely lonely nights,
& many long hours spent crying myself to sleep,
'cause there'll be no one there.
shit man, you suck.

when you're there, i just want to strangle and whack you,
but you're that lively spark that always brightens up my day,
it's so terrifying, the prospect of you falling so low.

you're important to all of us you idiot,
if she doesn't see it, that's her problem, not yours.
please stop blaming yourself,
& quit acting nonchalant, 'cause you're not.
the pain in your voice is fucking evident,
stop taking me for a fool, i can fucking hear it.

i wish you'd stop beating yourself up over it,
'cause it's not just you who's feeling the hurt.
we're all upset for you, but fuck you for not listening.

you bring the i back in idiot.
10:57 PM
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