i'm glad the stick i knew and loved was back yesterday.
but who am i kidding by saying that it's a definite return?
hell, you keep skirting the topic hon,
perhaps, i'm just holding out for too much.

would you care if i said i really miss you?

on a side note, yesterday's soakingoffirewood was pathetic.
i must say that i really have awesome training department mates,
who don't bother helping out at all.
oh no, they'll just sit there and procrastinate the whole time.
indeed, i really appreciate all the support shown by you guys.

cedar npcc annual camp 2006.
the mere mention of it scares me,
i'm dreading going for camp next week.
knowing that we're gonna be in charge doesn't make things easier.
in fact, it makes me dread it even more.
i wonder how much punishments and scoldings we'll achieve.

i'm tired of running,
i need to stop and face reality,
but you see, i don't know how.

my legs are getting tired,
pretty soon they're gonna stop from exhaustion.
i can't go on like this,
but again, i don't know how else.

i'm sick of curling in a corner and crying.
i'd really love to be helped,
and then i can help stick.
'cause they were right,
there's no way i can help me in my state.
but i don't know how.

& it's killing me.
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