the meaning of stupid in this case,
#oo1 tending to make poor decisions or careless mistakes,
#oo2 characterized by or proceeding from mental dullness; foolish; senseless,

now does that make much sense?

i figure it explains just why i'm doing it.
& really, i'm keeping my damn mouth shut about everything this week.
it's different this time,
i don't care about opinions,
& i sure as hell won't come crying back when something happens.

'cause even if something happens, i chose that route,
it's my decision, i'll bloody well live with it.
if i screw up too badly, well that's just too bad then.

it seems like all just such a dream once again,
& to fall would mean nothing,
that's nothing but just a dream though.
dreams aren't reality, they're just a fragment of the imagination.

& now that you're no longer going to be there for me,
to fall would spell certain death.
i'm too scared to try again,
it's so much safer here on the ledge,
yet the ground has never looked so fucking inviting before.

let's just jump & forget all the shits in life,
i'll abandon it all for a chance to pretend it never existed.
& nothing will matter 'cause i'll be too stoned out to bother again.
i'm sorry it couldn't be the perfect dream.
but even perfection is a flaw in itself.
10:56 PM
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