i can't remember what prompted me to start,
but i'm certain that nat was my biggest factor to start.
these days, you're both my driving factor.

now i'm believing all the words you say,
that i can't say back to you.

i wonder if things might just have been a little different,
but what's the point?
i keep telling myself that, i realise.
yet, i still reflect on that practically everyday.
wth man, seriously.

if you don't like being hurt then please don't stay.

you're probably in batam right now,
& it feels weird, almost like we're strangers once again.
i realised that we always stop talking after awhile.
& that period of time always stretches.
i'll miss and need you like hell, but i'll never say a thing,
'cause i'll always be worried that i'm disturbing your ohsoperfect life.
until you break the ice once again.
& that's when all the self-loathing, accusations, tears, fights and whathaveyou begins.
it's a crazy cycle youknowthat?

i wanna hang onto something
that won't break away or fall apart,
like the pieces of my heart.

it's weird how i can be so different.
i don't like it):
but then again, i'm too lazy to bother changing,
or perhaps, i'm scared that to change would mean something.

i hate this crazy charade,
tell the brain to get along with the plot,
& the heart to stop pulling the other way please.

when i woke up today,
feels like there's something missing
'cause all you do is wear me down.

this is horrible,
i'm back to focusing on the lyrics of emo songs.
pretty soon, it's gonna affect my moods again,
but wait, i only do that when i'm upset,
so err, why am i upset again?
good question, i don't fucking know.
since when have i ever got an answer for things anyway?

so fuck the warning signs, i'm already dead inside

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11:32 PM
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