i seriously detest work,
but i think i'm starting to hate you too.
don't let me hate you please.

i'm hanging on to faded hope, and forgotten happiness,
& pretending to be someone i'm not is tiring,
but reality's a bitch,
& i'm too scared to meet it head on,
so i'm hiding behind this front,
doing the craziest things to forget the pain that's present.

strangers in this crazed existence,
pining for what we can't have,
& longing to be that we're not,
meeting yet pretending,
maybe you should really give up now.

but i hear sound echo in the darkness,
all around, but you can't change this loneliness,
look at what you've found, i'm falling down.

nana i still love you a ton babe,
take care of yourself, really.
i don't wanna see you get hurt or anything.

incinerate what's left of this,
& torch the part of me that's you.

hey hon, i know you care & i know you love me,
but i'm still so fixated on this ideal i'm living on,
& i'm scared to break out of this facade,
all that i'm sprouting are excuses, i know that.
but i can't find anything else to say to justify,
ultimately, you guys are dead right,
but you know me, i'm stubborn.
& currently, i'm being pushed closer to the brink,
when i fall, will you still catch me?
or will you be far away again, like all the others?

i'll take all your pain,
but who's there to take mine?
it's hard to understand isn't it?

i want to drink,
but no one will get me any.):
it sucks, really.

but if you turn back on me now,
when i need you most,
but you chose to let me down.

why?
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