hello ben, i was busy with school whattttt.
ok bullshit, i was just too tired & fell asleep last night; sorry lah.
& yeah delirious was pretty cool; but um, the preaching sucked some.
'cause it kinda felt like they were forcing what they believed on us,
but ah wells, it was boring. haha.

school presents stress & pressure.
& honestly, i can't take it anymore.
there's the mounting pressure from school,
the problems around,
the bitch of a mind...
tears are heavily suppressed,
urges are severely squashed,
needs are forcefully ignored,
there's this silent cry screaming, & yet nothing can be done.

i know i promised, but it's so hard.
iggy! i just can't, i really can't.
everything's kept inside, it's hard you know.
i'm just concentrating fully on not breaking.
it's not fair, i'm complaining again, wtfh.

& wallowing in self-pity sucks,
but frankly, i'm too scared to get out of the hole.
so i just keep complaining & whining.
i'm fucking sick of this shit.

so much for all the promises you made me,
11:27 PM
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