it isn't just that lessons suck,
school's a lonely place where really, i don't belong.
it's a typical place where you see all the different cliques.
& if you don't belong anywhere by sec 4,
it's as simple as that, you just don't belong.

& i walk around school everyday bored as hell.
none of my bestest friends are in my school.
they're scattered here, there everywhere.
loneliness and boredom echoes from the whole compound.
hell, it ricochets off the walls.

hence, i really truly hate going to school.
& i'm always counting down till it's the weekends,
when i can really enjoy myself.
hell, despite all the shit currently,
tuesday nights are a welcome distraction from the beginning of the week.

i just read a particular blog,
where someone said that even if school sucks,
your sqdmates will always be there for you.
i believe they're just living in denial.
otherwise they just haven't opened their eyes wide yet.
my own sqd is a perfect example of hypocrites.
like c'mon, even i am a hypocrite in the squad.

all that talk about secondary school being a place where you meet your closest friends who will stick with you for life is frankly fucking bullshit.
or maybe, just maybe,
i don't bother opening up, well according to iggy at least.
but y'know darling stick,
i just don't see the fucking point.

& thankyou daddy,
yes i really appreciate that you're letting me skip school again.
really i am.

i'm proud of ignatius gabriel d'cruz by the way.
i'm very very proud of him actually.
he's finally studying!(:
yay, & 'cause he's iggy,
he'll be able to, hah.

oh, i should really stop procastinating and get down to work.
i have to complete that horrible amount of holiday hw.
i did promise iggy i'll try to be serious about my work this year.
a few more months & i'l be gone from cedar.
& to be honest, i can't fucking wait to graduate.
i've started counting down the days already, thankyou.
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