thankyou, my little spot of joy.
you're wonderful, really.

actually, i'm trying desperately not to freak out now.
i have too much work undone, most due tmr.
& a fucking exam tmr afternoon.
i have this feeling i'm gonna burst into tears soon.

hello, i think i need you here now to make me laugh.
i can't really cope with everything currently.
i'm scared man, fucking scared of god knows what.
d'you think you could possibly cheer me up now?

there's this unexplained pressure i feel weighing down on my chest.
& it's driving me fucking crazy.
i'm getting all jittery and scared.

i'm really tired,
& i just wanna sleep.
but fuck this all, i still have to do work.
damn.

& i knew you were lying.
somehow i couldn't believe that you were truly over her.
hey hon, i'm upset you kept it from me.
but if you think that, that's gonna make things better,
so be it then, there's nothing else for me to say.
thankyou for talking to me about it.
thankyou for listening to my complains again.
iloveyou, i really do,
you're a darling.

& though you frustrate me a lot,
you do make me laugh everytime.
& you're always there to just sit and be the company when i'm down.
thankyou you little spot of joy.
it means a lot to me.

i think i'll try to finish the most i can by 2.30
& then, i'll just go to sleep.
i'm freaking tired, & i probably won't survive tmr with so little sleep.
oh damn, i hate school.):
11:43 PM
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