yesterday would have been the perfect day of the school week,
if only i hadn't developed rashes, thanks to stupid allergies.
apparently it's called urticaria, & it got worse,
'cause i was smart enough to forget that,
i can't freaking eat seafood when i have rashes.
ah wells, the medicine helped & the rashes are gone.
yay.(:

my initial plan was to sleep through today,
& just wake up around the middle of the night.
but you know, now i'd really love to go out.
unfortunately, i'm too lazy to bother asking anyone if they're free.

sometimes it's funny how much i contradict myself,
but it's ok, i'm used to it.

iggy if anything at all,
i just wish you'll stop betting so much.
& though i know you'll never listen to me,
sometimes i wish you will.

i can't do much about anything at all.
& i hate that this friendship seems so one-sided.
it makes me feel useless knowing that i can't help you at all.
you're the one person who understands me too well.
& i shouldn't be nagging at you all the time,
i don't like it at all, it makes me feel fucking old.

please be happy if anything else at all.
it's all that will pretty much matter now.
thankyou for everything & always being there.
i love you much, take care.
2:05 PM
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