you see, that's why i hate it so sometimes.
'cause it makes me feel fucking guilty.
damn.

i realised a little earlier on that i'm really terrified of doing something wrong.
especially amongst you guys.
'cause i'm so scared of the repercussions, the frustration & the anger.
& if i feel that way, i don't know,
but i believe that means something's really wrong here.

'cause technically speaking, you'll are supposed to be accepting right,
so if i'm so scared of committing a mistake,
then there's gotta be a problem somewhere.
only you see, i can't put a finger to the problem exactly
AND, i'm a little scared to identify it.
i really don't wanna admit that maybe, just maybe,
i'm growing scared of you guys.
it's really not something that i want to happen.
& there's basically just two that i'm especially afraid of.
& really, i don't like this.
not one single bit.

but then again,
ah):
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