i just got a bloody paper cut.
-mutters.
for such a tiny thing, it hurts like crap.
oh wth.

plainsunset is performing next week.
& i can't go.
'cause it's too bloody ex.
60 bucks, nah uh.

on a sidenote, i've got one answer at least.
thankyou for giving me the opportunity Lord.
indeed, He hears our prayers.
i've got a new promise!
to simply ignore what others think of me,
& share His word as He wants me to.

it's been eating at me since tuesday.
it started off with the whole sotiredimfallingasleep during devotion.
then i gave up the opportunity to share what i've learnt at se.
the whole shitwhatwilltheythinkifisharemyfaith in school.
i missed out on the perfect opportunity to share with umayirongsyafiqah.
then another sotiredimfallingasleep during worship on wednesday.
i missed out on something very important - kevin's message.

guilt is a very harsh master.
i've been carrying it around until earlier,
when i had the chance to talk to nigel.
true, he thought me freaky and found it irritating.
but hey, he's always talking to me when his relationships break down,
there's always another chance.

haha, if the me of last year read this post,
she'd probably think the me of now has gone off her rocker.

i don't wanna make the choice.
nope, but subconciously i have.
& though it's kept silent,
i do feel this pressure from people to choose between excess & sonicedge.
nope, i'm not liking it one bit.
it's putting more stress on me.
& there's already enough from exams & iggy.

shit, midyrs are pretty soon.
funnily, i still can't muster any sense of urgency.
i need to reevaluate my mindset, heh.

annnnnnnnnnnd! i need a good long break, aka sleep and fun.
i can't wait for the june hols.
approximately 6 more weeks to late night suppers and fellowship.
i so am counting down the days already.

oh and the next msg is coming up!
3 more weekends :D

i forgot to say something.
FIREFIGHT this saturday!
yay, i'll be catching the awesomest again.
& no jon, i can't laugh out loud.
it's called habit.
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